It’s now been four months since my old job was terminated, and there have been many things happening in the interim. And some very complicated emotions.
So have I been idle? Oh-no-no-no-no… Things around the house which have been neglected are now fixed, and others are on the way to being fixed.
Am I in better shape, physically? Unfortunately, no… My knees have restricted me from doing many things, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t ask others to help me get things done. And every one and all of you guys have my great gratitude.
And what about the Big R: Retirement? I don’t think so. At this stage of my life, it’d be like giving up. I still have this energy left in me to, as Max Lucado says, “…to make a big deal out of God”.
I think of the difference I’ve made in the places where I’ve worked, and the spark of Life is still alive and dancing within me.
On the other side of the spectrum, I was recently thinking about someone I know who had a “retirement party”, and used the opportunity to tell many stories about how he had inflicted his point of view on others, instead of listening to their life stories and putting an arm around them and accepting them for who they are.
I was saddened by the loss of opportunity: I heard someone who makes great claims about his faith, but had thrown away several chances to reflect Christ in his life by understanding people on a one-to-one basis. Yep, you go getting full of pride, watch out for what it does to you. So yeah, I lost a bunch of respect for the guy that day.
If I should ever have a ‘retirement party’, may some things be true:
- It’s going to be some time in the future.
- May I have made a difference in people’s lives.
- May others be able to speak of me as a strong, quiet, and steadfast friend.
- And may I have many more friends than I ever realized.
Let’s get back to the present: Here I am, nearing “retirement age”, and yet I still have an energy and drive to give to those things which God would wish me to do: enriching the lives of those with whom I work, making a difference every day with my work, being a friend and a deep resource for my employer, and being able to come home every day, knowing that I have made a difference in God’s world.
Meanwhile, the job hunt goes on: I have a couple opportunities: one, to East of me, and another to the North. The potential of both of these is literally exciting. Even at my age…
I know that God’s hand still rests upon me, and maybe he thinks I’m still useful.
I’m still energized. I’m still able. But most of all, I’m still God’s servant.
Let’s see where this goes.
I’m in for the ride, Lord; let’s go.